Forced to Kill Themselves, Aged 22 – Li Zhong, 6 January 665

Long ago, as Prince Li Zhong’s enemies were closing in on him, he disguised himself as a woman, seeking refuge in the women’s quarters, where assassins might not follow him. He was right, but they caught up with him eventually, and forced him to commit suicide.

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A poet, inspired by the Japanese tradition of the death poem, reflected on his fate in these haiku, which they wrote from the prince’s point of view:

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I am twenty two,

Have lived my life to the full,

Got and given love,

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Chrysanthemum Thrones

And Princely names, Prefectures

Given and taken:

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The old Emperor danced

When I was born, but this new

Empress stamps on me—

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I’ve hidden myself,

Disguised my sex, who I am’s

No longer my choice:

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My favourite people

Taken from me, I must go

Find my rest with them.

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Life in the imperial family could be as brutal as the violent deaths they were addicted to inflicting on each other.

The prince’s namesake, writing a few centuries later, was a great poet who often reflected on fate, and unfulfilled promise, and may well have done so when pondering the prince’s, on the anniversary of his death, which happened on 6 January 665.

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Photo by Freddie Oomkens

 

person

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From Tank Person to

Person, transitioning, stillI

Standing up to power

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I became one with

The tank, then we dissolved, gone—

Person can return.

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Omm

from conversations with my friend

Yu Yan Yip

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The photo is of a rare and wondrous Inchan tree, over 200 years old, in Thailand, which bears two different types of fruit, the In and the Chan, at alternating times each year. In a similar way, one person may develop two different, alternating kinds of being, at alternating times, while remaining the same, consistent person.

This poem is part of a series inspired by the experience of Yu Yan Yip, previously known as Tank Man, who has been on the run and transitioning for many years.

The previous poems in the series are:

– Tank Man

– Tank Person

Photo of the Inchan Tree by Freddie Oomkens taken at Kanchanaburi, Thailand, in 2022

tank person


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Called a man, then, I

Changed, fluid, freely flowing. Now

I am Tank Person.

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Omm

from conversations with my friend

Yu Yan Yip

 

photo by freddie

tank man (unknown rebel)

I stood up to you,

Then disappeared.

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Even now

                                up to you

I stand

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Not invisible,

Although unseen, unknown, still

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I stand up to you.

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31 years on.

We greet and salute you, Yu Yan Yip—and all who stood and stand up to faceless tyranny.

Peace.

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